So yesterday, I was taken for a walk in the park and next week, I’m
being micro-chipped. (I’m not sure I like where this is heading!)
To be fair though, the walk was a good idea – even if I had to be coerced. It
was nice to get a bit of fresh air and have a natter. And tonight we’re being cooked for again. Honestly, I never knew having cancer could be so sociable!
In all seriousness, I wouldn't want anyone to think that this process has been, or is, easy-going. It really isn't. But if you can't make light of things and take your laughs where you can, you really would go mad.
There are times when I've found it hard. I'll be doing something quite innocuous - like making a cup of tea - and then, in that unguarded, unconscious moment, start to cry. And I know that's fine. Natural. But it's not something that most people will get to see. I'm a hard-faced bitch, remember ... ;-)
So, can I say again how much I really do appreciate all the offers of help that we've received and while we may not have taken you up on them thus far, it doesn't mean that we won't. It means so much just to know that they're there.
Its amazing how well you are handling this whole situation but I don't for a second think that it also hasnt hit you bloody hard and that some days you feel like alternately raging at the world or collapsing in a ball and having a damn good cry.
ReplyDeleteThe important thing is that you are facing it head on and in a way that you find easier to deal with, ie. humour and refreshing honesty.
There are no right or wrong ways to deal with this - you've just got to go with the flow and take each day as it comes and also how you feel on that particular day as I imagine that no two days are the same in terms or how you feel.
You sound like you have an amazing group of family and friends (and man!) around you. However,if you ever find yourself in Canary wharf or thereabouts, thats where I work these days so if you fancy a coffee with an old school friend just let me know.
I'll even chuck in a muffin....... :)
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