I've woken up in a really weird mood today. I'm feeling unsettled.
I know why, of course. I'm going to hospital this afternoon to get the results of my various tests and scans. And while I don't have any reason to think I'll be getting more bad news, there's always the nagging fear that I might.
For the most part, I've been quite practical and 'matter of fact' as my friends have put it. But today, I've had a little wobble. I'll be honest - I'm scared ...
i realise there is no point saying don't be scared, but maybe plan to do something nicer afterwards then at least you have something to look forward to. I always plan a little treat, even if its just a bag of M&M, after treatment (non-cancer)and it seems to take the edge off.
ReplyDeleteAlthough we may not be physically with you this afternoon, we will be holding your hand virtually. Xx
ReplyDeleteGood luck Kate! I hope the news doesn't get any worse and that some dates in the calendar will make you feel a bit more in control.
ReplyDeleteSarah P x
Poor you - it's such an anxious time. It's never too early to speak to Macmillan you know. They were a real help to my Dad (and the rest of us) from his earliest diagnosis. You can just give them a ring on 0808 808 0000.
ReplyDeleteKeep your little chin up. We're all missing you and thinking of you.
Love, Janice x