Wednesday 29 February 2012

What a difference a day makes

While I still woke up feeling a bit grotty, the improvement since yesterday has been significant. I’m actually starting to feel like myself again.

It’s had such an impact on my state of mind. Yesterday, I felt very low; the uncertainty of when, if ever(!), I was going to feel better had really dragged me down. Mr P. was worried too. When I get upset, he gets upset ... and that’s the last thing I want to see happen. 

So today, I’m feeling positive – if bloody tired.  I know I’ve still got a bit of a temperature but my sleep has been completely disrupted ever since the treatment last week.  I can’t seem to sleep in more than 2-4 hour bursts. It’s really odd. I wake up two or three times a night, and then nod off again.  But at least it means I get up early - (see, I said I was turning into an old lady!) – and can try to get a few things done. So, every cloud ... !

I’d also like to thank all the people who’ve emailed me or been commenting here on the blog or via Facebook, offering tips and words of encouragement. It’s really lovely to know that people are interested and genuinely care, even though we may not have seen each other for a while or maybe not physically met.

It’s a sad fact that cancer is something that will touch us all in some way.  Its indiscriminate nature makes us all equal. So, on that note, I just want to mention a good friend who had a mastectomy yesterday. Her breast cancer is a different type to mine and she is some years older than me, but that makes no difference to how I know she – and her family - will be feeling.

So, I hope you’ll join with me in wishing her a successful and speedy recovery. She’s a tough old boot ... and let’s be honest, it takes one to know one! :-)

Get well soon, Elaine. x


  1. You dont know me but I know your sister Claire from Hereford HMTC. I really admire your determination and honesty on your blog and wish you a speedy recovery and as your blog title says Cancer can F**k off, as I am sure having tackled you it will!!!

    1. ^^^^Same here! Glad You're feeling a little better now your infection of the facial regions is being sorted and all the best to your friend Elaine! My sisters friend has just recently had a lumpectomy and has been proudly showing off her 'new' reconstructed boob which can move due to being joined to muscle! :-) Stay positive! x

  2. Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better today. Re: sleep patterns, did you read this on the BBC yesterday? - maybe your body is going old school to cope with the treatment?? :o) xx