Today is Mr P’s birthday and we’ve both taken the day off to lie in bed, drink Bucks Fizz and be very, very lazy. And tonight we’re off to a ‘Sports Dinner’ with friends to enjoy some nice food and some great company before I leave my job (of over 12 years) tomorrow.
As I wrote in my last post, it’s been an interesting couple of weeks. Things have definitely started to fall into place, in a way that has truly surpassed all my expectations.
Specifically, I have been told this week that I can definitely start hormone treatment and freeze MY OWN eggs! I could start taking the drugs as early as Easter (although the end of April is more likely).
I’m still pinching myself about all of this. Eight weeks ago I felt completely crushed and let down by the system. I felt that I had been cruelly deprived of life options but didn’t feel that I had the energy to fight the NHS bureaucrats.
But, two months later, and the situation is very different. Hot on the heels of being told by the ‘Marsden’s Oncology team that I could stop Tamoxifen for a month and take hormone treatment, I got a random phone call from Queen Charlottes’ IVF Team which resulted in me going in for more tests and getting their agreement that I can start the drugs for egg stimulation ASAP.
I don't know if my 'letter of concern' to the Primary Care Trust's CEO has accelerated any of this but I'm not going to look a gift horse in the mouth. It all feels brilliantly surreal.
Of course, I know it’s not going to be an easy process, far from it. And the timing could be better: who wants to start a new job dosed up to the max on hormones(!) but, f*ck it, I'm just going to go with the flow. By the end of June, IVF and surgery should be finished and I can start my 'naughty forties' with perky new boobs and some frozen eggs in the bank. ;-)
So tomorrow, when I leave AAT, it will be with a real sense of optimism. I'm enormously grateful for all the support that I've received over the last 15 months (and indeed, 12 years) but I do believe that everything happens for a reason and that my life is now moving forward in an incredibly positive way.
I'm also looking forward to meeting up with some ex. AAT friends who will be celebrating with me. Onwards and upwards, as they say!